Work Like You Were Retiring

For years, retirement was that day, sometime in the future, when the heavens would open, the angels would sing and rainbows would arc across a beautiful sky. Each day would start off with me waking without an alarm clock and asking myself, “What shall I do today?” And I would wander in any direction that made me happy. That was the theory I was looking forward to putting into practice.

The time is almost here and instead of rainbows and angels, about the only thing happening is panic and angst.  It appears I have become pretty comfortable with neurosis the past couple of years, so why the hell stop now. Let’s take something like retirement and celebrate the freak-out-ness of it. If there is one thing of which I am certain, it’s that uncertainty and change are here to stay.

There are a couple of things I won’t miss……the hour, each way, daily commute and paperwork. That’s pretty much it.

While I have a couple of months left to work at a career I’ve had for 31 years, I catch myself  being all chilled about things that would normally be annoying. Students (and parents) have always made sure that there was a new reason to be amazed, both good and bad.  But, these days, I couldn’t even get peeved at any part of the job if I tried. Right now, my job feels like that song about living like you’re dying. Well, I am here to tell you, I’ve discovered something called; “work like you’re retiring” (not to be at all confused with the short timers, don’t give a damn mentality)

If you know someone who is retiring you may want to avoid asking the question “What are you going to do?” I have decided to start making up gargantuan lies. “I’m going to live in the Amazon rain forest for a year,” or “I’m training for the Iditarod.” If you ask me that question, you could be that straw….on the camel’s back… the lucky one who gets to experience the floodgates that can’t be bottled any longer. Please don’t tap that keg. Hey, it’s a fair warning, folks.

Just work like you were retiring.           http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h6jnynVLfLA

I have this friend named Dana.  What she says is so amazing, that my daughter, who knows a good wordsmith when she sees one, says that I should start another blog called, “Shit Dana Says”.  I agree. It would be brilliant, but I can’t follow her around with a pencil and a piece of paper and then it would be fake anyway. I just have to take the moments as they naturally occur and zzzziiing!  I know “Shit Dana Says” when I hear it. She nails the situation in words that no person has ever strung together in a sentence before. So, hold that thought.

Being across the river from our nation’s capital, I feared the worst from 10,000 trucks inundating the roads, rendering movement from one place to another, impossible on the weekend of my son’s wedding.  One Dude on the news promised me that there would be millions of people taking part…the biggest thing, etc, etc, etc,. But the only report of trucks that I heard, was on Sunday when one of the groomsmen rode his bike back from St. John’s Episcopal Church on Lafayette Square where he works and yes, that is The  President’s Church. Any president. Pick one. They all worship there because they can walk from the White House. The secret service alerts the church sexton about 4am, they come in and sweep the place and prepare it for the President to sit in the “President’s Pew”.  My son once told me the story of his fellow seminarian delivering his very first sermon in his entire life and there sat the President of the United States. No pressure. Just be yourself. Anyway, the groomsman said there were four trucks sitting in front of the White House blowing their horns. FOUR! Uno! Dos! Tres! Quatro!! That was hardly worth my pre-wedding meltdown. But it was bound to be caused by something, so I will take a fake, non-existent protest any day of the week.

So while very angry people were storming the Memorials in DC all weekend, (on foot, thank God!) some of the wedding guests who had brought their young daughter with them, took her to see democracy in action on the morning of the wedding. She had to write a paper about it, because she had missed a day of school and this was her penitence assigned by the teacher. They walked around and the little girl saw the stormed gates stacked up at the WWII memorial where people had defied the government and made their statement while waving flags and signs and yelled things that were not very nice.

I love a good protest as much as the next person and I do love this country!!  Dana can say all the shit she says and nobody goes to jail. Ain’t America great!!!!

The wedding guests/DC visitors noticed one memorial where nothing was stacked, no one was screaming, there were no vitriolic words on paper, no flags, and no one had even tried to storm the gates. They lifted their daughter over the gate, climbed over themselves and read all of the amazing quotes around the Martin Luther King, Jr. Memorial. The little girl skipped from one wall to another, learning about all of the things he had to say about his love for humanity, non-violence and peace.

That sums up the wedding weekend. While the world outside the seminary walls may have been filled with hate and dysfunction, inside there was nothing but love for humanity, love for the happy couple and just love in general.

At the wedding reception, my friend Dana leaned over to me and said, “Rhonda, I am here to tell you that there is no amount of money in the world that could buy what we have here in this place tonight!”, with her usual dramatic flair and a fake pound on the table.

“Wow, Dana! I think that’s the nicest shit you’ve ever said!” As usual. She nailed it.

By the way…is it just me, or was Sarah Palin wearing hair extensions?

We shall overcome because the arc of the moral universe is long,but it bends toward justice- Martin Luther King, Jr.

Shit people write!!!!

St. Francis of Assisi had a blast!!!

The wedding was so wildly wonderful, that I am material-less! That’s right! Material-Less!! Yes, it was that fantastic. I did have the chance to decorate St. Francis of Assisi before I left. I think he’s just lovely!!!

Those wild and crazy theologians!! Let the bachelor party commence!!!

My Redemption

On the front of the birthday card, there were three nuns, crosses dangled on their chests; faces peeked through the severe mixture of black and white coverage. They prayed fervently, without ceasing.

Oh, I am already excited!!

On the inside, the message read:

Mom,

Hope your birthday was so much fun that it still takes a team working around the clock to pray for your redemption.

Happy Birthday!!! I hope it was a blast.

Love You,

Daniel

The great thing about this is that my son is at Virginia Theological Seminary to be an Episcopal priest. So, I would say that’s one heck of a perk when it comes to praying for my redemption. Lord knows, I need it.

To make my redemption even sweeter, he is marrying an Episcopal priest and yes, she is a female. I learned that I needed to throw that out there when people heard me say that he was marring an Episcopal priest.  At first, it didn’t occur to me that there was  anything strange about it and then I saw how many raised eyebrows or just how many incredibly awkward stares I had. I learned there was a  need for clarification. Not because I care.   Heck, I wouldn’t care who he married, as long as he’s happy. Looks like he was just born that way. But it just catches people off guard. First a priest getting married and then to a female priest. So many misunderstandings, so little time.

The birthday card from my future daughter in law had a bunch of face creams and treatments…Eliminates Sagging, Eliminates Wrinkles, Eliminates Fine Lines, Puffiness, Aging, the usual. Then in the inside, there’s a picture of a Martini and the sign over that says, “Eliminates Caring”.

Cheers!!!!

I am looking forward to the rest of my life! Wedding week….game on!!!

Wedding Women, Hear Us Roar

I don’t know about you, but when my first child, a son named Daniel, was born, I was filled with a sense of woman-ness, for lack of a better term. And by that I mean that I could NOT believe that women all over the planet since the beginning of human time, had experienced this amazing, overwhelming physical accomplishment that was wrapped up in the most deeply profound feelings I would ever know.  Immediately the world looked different and women were now Goddesses all wrapped up in motherhood.

And now this guy is getting married and I am again reminded of how many weddings, in all cultures around the world, occur on a regular basis. I am back in awe of the woman-ness of that. And I am only the mother of the groom.

Daniel and Lara, just before the actual proposal in Alexandria, Virginia.

I mean, let’s face it. Weddings don’t happen because men are consumed with the intricacies of the color palate or the seating chart and who gets along with whom, etc. etc. Well, at least not Dude men. And Dude men are my point of reference for this particular conversation. My non-Dude men are a different conversation and I am blessed to have a bunch of them involved. Being a Dude is a wonderful thing. It really must be. So, if you are one, please don’t take this disparagingly. I am trying to help you understand and forewarn.

So, while all of the women are running around, stressed to the maximum level, making this happen and bossing around the Dudes in our bitchiest voices ever. Here are ten words of advice. WE DON’T CARE IF WE DON’T MAKE SENSE TO YOU!!! If you try to throw your “Dude Rationale” in earshot and make things simple, when we have made it all complicated, you may get a stiletto through your eardrum.

Truth is, at least for me, as I don’t speak for all women. I am envious of your willingness to throw out a keg, some pepperoni slices and cheese blocks and call it an amazing event. In our wildest dreams and fantasies, that would be acceptable. But I have to live in the real world and nachos and cheese sauce just don’t work, but we love you for it.

Weddings and funerals can just bring out the primitive in all of us.

It IS OFFICIALLY WEDDING WEEK!!!!

So Daniel, please pick up the keg for the rehearsal dinner.  I love you. –Mom.

Couch Surfing

Yeah, it’s a thing. If you are under 30, you’re already aware. If you’re my age and a parent, you know it’s a deranged sociopath’s dream come true and someone is going to end up buried in the backyard.

And this is the story of how I was talked into doing it.

For those of you, who live blissfully unaware of couch surfing, let me explain. You go to couchsurfing.org and you find people in places all over the world, who will let you stay in their house…for free…..while they are also there. It’s considered a “cultural exchange” program and one would get to see a place through the eyes of its host. The summer my daughter graduated from college, she and her BFF went all over the USA on Amtrak, couch surfing their way through some of the most fabulous cities across America. Yes, I had my neurotic Mama Bear hissy fit. (Pointless, since she used her own money.) So, I took her itinerary, told her if she didn’t call me every single day, I would notify the police to hunt down her hosts and I would have been relentless. I think she believed me because she called me every day. It went something like this.

Me: Hello
Laura: Hi Mom. I’m alive. Gotta run. Love you. Click.

Now let’s fast forward a year.

I recently drove from Wilmington, NC to a little town, deep in Pinot Noir country in Oregon. Google Maps says that’s a total of 3,053 miles. As a result of my daughter’s cross country couch surfing experience, she decided to move there to work for a year before graduate school and I have no one to blame but myself because I passed my wanderlust gene to both her and her brother.

I have to own up that I can be a bit neurotic sometimes. Case in point: I cannot stand to ride with my children. I have to drive, as in HAVE TO drive!! I am pretty sure that I drove 3,000 of the 3,053 miles in Laura’s pickup truck that was old enough to have radio antennae. The bed was loaded down, Clampett style, with all of her worldly goods packed in plastic crates and held in place by an intricate web of bungee cords. She was in charge of music and taking pictures when I would scream, “Oooo …ooo…get that! Now! Shoot! NOW!!!! Did you get it?” as we drove past it at 80 miles an hour. Poor thing.

Laura Rockin’ her DJ/Photography gig

When planning this trip, I decided how far we would try to get each day and the approximate location that we would pull into a cheap interstate motel for the night. My 23 year old daughter didn’t understand at all why I was vehemently opposed to couch surfing the whole way and save tons of money. She is absolutely determined that I need to couch surf, because it is so much fun, you meet the coolest people, blah, blah, blah.

That conversation went something like this:

Me: Have you lost you ever loving mind??? I am not staying on a couch in some random  25 year old dude’s apartment!
Laura: Mom, seriously, you should broaden your horizons.
Me: Are you kidding me?? If my horizons get any broader, I am going to fall off the edge of the planet!!
Laura: I can’t believe you won’t be open-minded about meeting really cool people this way.
Me: I love to meet really cool people and when it’s time to go to bed, I don’t want to still be in the house of the really cool people that I just met!

And it went on and on and as these things usually go, I agreed to give it SOME consideration. And I got to make the rules, because we had to have rules!!

So, here were my rules:
1) We would do it ONLY one night.
2) The hosts had to be a married couple.
3) They had to be over 40.
4) We would have our own bedroom/bathroom.
5) It had to be in Park City, Utah, because the coolest of the cool people must live there.

I was so impressed by my cleverness with the rules that would rule out any potential for couch surfing, when son of a gun, Laura found the perfect couple with the perfect house in Park Effing City, Utah!!!

Turns out, couchsurfing.org is a lot like Match.com, only you’re turned on by their house.

Driving into Park City, we passed the barn with the huge American flag and the Olympic ski jump. I was headed into Sundance Territory, the land of the free, the home of Robert Redford. This was a huge bucket lister for me, and now I had to be worried about a date…with a house…with owners….who are letting us stay there. Who does this??

We arranged to meet our host couple at Wasatch Brewery on Main Street, right down from The Egyptian Theater where the Sundance Film Festival happens. Pinch self, now back to what the hell was I thinking?? I strategized that if they were awful people, I could feign a deathly contagious illness and that would be the end of that, just like a Match.com date/ditch scenario.

All My Friends Know the Lowrider!!!

I figured it would be better to piss off a sociopath in public, than behind that secret door they had built just for us.

It didn’t help that we had our one and only argument of the trip, right in front of the outdoor dining section at the brewery. I don’t even remember what it was about, but it probably had something to do with my mood. I wondered if any of the outdoor diners watching this exchange, were our sociopathic house date people, who now sensed our weakness and knew just how easy it was going to be to divide and conquer. Serial killer piece of cake!!! In my mind, we would be dead by morning. At least, I could scratch Park City off the list before they kicked my bucket and poured lyme all over my body.

Laura and I decided to end our heated conversation the old fashioned way,  just shut up and drink a beer. Nothing says “Welcome to Utah” like a round of Polygamy Porters!! Why have just one!

The host couple turned out to be really cool, just like Laura promised. We had a delightful evening that continued on the deck of their gorgeous home. I loved their stories about rafting the Grand Canyon and spending months on wild rivers all over the world. The house was fabulous and the bed was to die for. I still covet that thick memory foam mattress. I have to admit that overall, it was not a horrible experience, although, probably not the best way for a neurotic Mom to see the world.

When it was all said and done, the only one who had behaved like a crazy lunatic was me.

Laura with our lovely host, Pam, admiring our bungee skills.